A murderer’s disguise

Mr. A shot me an e-mail the other day saying that he found the MySpace of Brian Draper. For those of you who don’t know Brian Draper and his cohort Torey Adamcik were two teens sentenced to life in prison for the brutal murder of 16-year-old Cassie Jo Stoddart.

Draper is not only a vicious killer but he’s also an admitted mutant, the term I use for ‘fans’ of Columbine.

I figured that the MySpace was probably a leftover before he went into prison and probably contained the incoherent ramblings of a teenage monster. Imagine my surprise when this is what I stumble on.

Many things have happened since the last time I updated this page: I have moved to the prison in Boise, Idaho, and I am in a transition stage that may last a couple of weeks. Following the transition I will be moved to a new location in Boise.

I want you all to know that I am hanging in there. Things get rough from time to time, and I don’t go a week without breaking down at least once. But overall my life is ok. I keep busy by going to religious services, attending educational classes (creative writing, computers), writing, reading and playing a lot of chess. I am also able to play the piano down at the chapel. I play piano for church services, and for an hour a week I can play the piano in solitude. I wrote a song dedicated to everything that has happened, called Sorrows and Sunrises.

Obviously, this wasn’t written by Draper for a number of reasons. The first being I don’t think Draper could form a coherent sentenced if you spotted him the noun and the verb. Secondly, most prisons don’t allow their inmates to have access to the internet. Lastly, Draper and Adamcik have kind of become the poster boys for the people who believe that teens shouldn’t be charged as adults. For example…

Currently I am in the appeals process, so that maybe someday I can be released and start redeeming myself on the outside, like I am doing now, on the inside. I am in the STOP program here, which is a program that brings kids into the facility, and inmates speak with them about being a good person and staying out of trouble. I am one of those inmates that speak to the kids.

If my appeal for reduction of sentencing is thrown out, then I will be content with the life I have. We must think about what we do have, not about what we don’t have. We must set goals and strive to meet them. If I spend the rest of my life locked in a prison, I will rise above that. If God wants me to stay here, then this is where I will stay.

I will leave you with two good sayings: “I wept because I had no shoes till I saw a man who had no feet.” “Two men looked out through prison bars; one saw mud, the other stars.”

Thanks again for all your support, I hope and pray you are all doing well.

I love you all, and thank you for believing in me. Never forget Cassie Jo Stoddart.

Your friend,


Who I’d like to meet:

Hemingway, Albert Einstein, Richard Wilbur, and James P. Gills

First off he gave up any right of talking about Cassie Jo Stoddart, especially after he said this on videotape after her murder.

“Just killed Cassie, we just left her house, this is not a f***ing joke,” says Brian Draper on the homemade videotape. “I’m shaking,” replies Adamcik.”I stabbed her in the throat and I saw her lifeless body just disappear,” says Draper.

I highly doubt someone who did this is capable of all these ‘feel good’ statements and if he is going through all these programs I’m sure it’s all for show. I also noticed the lack of negative comments on his MySpace. Brutal killers usually get slammed with ‘see you in hell’ kind of comments which leads me to believe that not only was this crap written by someone else but it’s also being severely moderated.

Lastly, I doubt the people he wants to meet or Hemingway and Einstein. It’s probably more like Manson, Dahmer, Harris, and Klebold.

Someone who slashes a girls throat just for the thrills and brags about it on tape isn’t going to change his stripes this quickly let alone ever.


2 thoughts on “A murderer’s disguise”

  1. Interesting. I recently watched the Lost for Life Documentary and he ALMOST had me fooled. That was until he kept talking about her murder. Confessing. It wasn’t ownership. It was bragging. I thought maybe I was reading too much into it, but seeing the way he added her into the bottom of his MySpace post, confirms that.


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